so i've decided that i would start writing a journal...i used to have an actual journal but this livejournal seems so much more fun :)

today i read The Truth About Forever by sarah dessen for like the 5th time...i lovee her books...ive read all of them...and they're soo goodd! they make me happy :)...right now i should be doing my homework but as always im too lazy and unmotivated to care...i promised myself that i would do a better job of keeping up with my homework and just get through this semester...and then i'd be forever done with high school...
    i got acceptance letters from Texas tech, TWU, and UT tyler :) but i'm still waiting to hear from ut austin...i have no clue where i wanna go...i wanna visit at least 3-4 of the colleges i wanna go to...my top choices would be texas tech, ut san antonio, and ut austin of course...but i still have no clue how im gonna choose....i just hope that wherever i go ill be productive and happy/content :/...this college thing has gotten so important to me...sometimes i just stop caring and just wanna get out of dallas but then sometimes i worry about having friends or whatnot...i know that im an independent person and i like doing things on my own..but sometimes i wish i had like a group of friends that was always there...
    everything seems so overrated these days...since im a senior all these senior crap is upon me...like prom, graduation, senior pics, graduation party...seriously graduation parties?? so overrated...i swear the only reason ppl have those is so that they can basically say Hey! Look at me! Look at me! i've graduated freakin high school...i dont wanna graduation party anymore considering the fact that i keep to myself these days so noone would come and i wouldnt have an amazing slideshow with heartwarming music reflecting the past 18 years of my wonderful amazing life because my little brother has deleted my account which results in 55% of my pictures being gone...i know there must be some way of retrieving those but i dont care enough to find out how...so yeah..i just wanna get outta here and start new...i know the past will always be there..but im ready to just leave this phase behind..
    i should attempt to start homework...